Saturday, November 26, 2011

Real

As amazing as my life is, it's a lot of work. These are a few struggles i've been trying to cope with lately.

My 3 older girls fight a lot. It drives me crazy! Like I really am going crazy. I seriously need a whistle because I feel like a referee all day and it's EXHAUSTING. I'm starting to feel like the worst mom alive because I feel like i'm ALWAYS getting mad at someone, or yelling so loud just to be heard! You know what I mean if we've talked on the phone...

My husband works a retarded shift, 11 on, 3 off. Yup worse than the 10 and 4 he was on before. Luckily it's only days, but it's a lot. I'm pretty used to it now though. I go to church every other week by myself with the girls, and ballet with all of them. Both are early mornings and now that it's winter, it's more fun.... Get up early and shower (in order to even wake myself up), get everyone dressed (they are the slowest children in the world I think!), get myself ready, get their hair done, pack diaper bag, feed them, start van, bundle them all up, haul them all out to the van, crawl in and buckle the twins in, get into the drivers seat and BREATHE. ugh. I think that's the hardest part about going anywhere. This winter is going to be hard.



I live in a small townhouse that we grew out of a long time ago. I would drive myself crazy if I thought about this too much. Hence the husband working a lot. I hate complaining about this because i'm so grateful to have a home, but I want a home I can love and decorate and paint! I'm hoping next year this will happen. :)

I have a 5 year old going on 14, as awesome as she is, she has this little attitude coming out and i'm terrified!! I was pretty sure the toddler years were the hardest, but now i'm not so sure.

Anyways, my point is. Life is not perfect and these are only a few things I deal with on a daily basis. I had to adjust to being a mom of 4 before I was ready and it's not easy. I'm so blessed. SO blessed. But it's hard. I completely understand why people say being a mom is the hardest job in the world. It's emotionally, mentally and physically exhausting.
Am I discipling this right? Then I need to stay on top of the discipline (you give em an inch they take a mile), then I feel like i'm too hard and not being a loving mom, so I do something such as surprise them and make them playdo and they fight over what color to make it! It's a crazy circle and some days I wonder how i'll make it through. We do have awesome days and have so much fun, we are such a happy family and I love us so much. I have the worlds most patient husband. I would love to hear what goes on in his head some days because I feel like I can be a challenging wife who complains a lot.
I'm grateful for my sisters who listen to me vent pretty much every day. I've been blessed with an amazing friend who has been through everything i'm going through and I swear without her support i'd be way worse off right now than I am.

I didn't want this to be a "poor me" post but I needed to write it out. When I feel something, I write about it.
I'm done. :)



I made pumpkin cookies today for the first time from a recipe I pinned on pinterest and i've been wanting to try them for a while. They are awesome. All 75 of them!! Who knew one recipe could make that many FREAKING cookies! Hilarious.



8 comments:

Randy and Capri Bird said...

I have to know how you did your hair. So cute!

CarlyK said...

I feel like you just wrote about my life:) I hope they grow out of the fighting soon, that will help a lot (at least it would help me a lot).

mad about him!!! said...

mindy...i heart you big time gurl! from a mom who has benn doing this WAY too long, it REALLY does get easier, it just takes a while...problem is, as soon as we get used to what they throw at us, the little buggers go and change it up!! i figure if you can get one good smile or laugh out of each of them everyday, no matter what is going on, you have succeeded! keep on keepin on...i think my saving grace lately has been pinterest...i made a rule i have to make at least one thing a week, or i can't go on it...i make SO much stuff off it now!!! lol just be glad you don't have to read the blog i don't have time or energy to write...you would feel like such a better wife and mother!!! lol

Jeff and Brit said...

Min! You are an awesome mom no matter how you feel some days! I am sure looking forward to advice when Laynie (and others kids one day ha) get to be at Kyla's age and know how to push your buttons ha. Love ya hun! Hang in there!

henline crew said...

Oh man, totally there. Some days I'm surprised I'm not bald.

The Harker Family said...

Okay I was exhausted just reading what you have to do to get the girls out the door! Ha, ha, ha! I only have 3 and find it hard to get out the door with them! Yes sibbling fighting. Glad to hear it's not just my children...for a while I thought it was. Ha, ha, ha! Oh and gorgeous pic of you! Love it! Hang in there...your children will remember how much you sacrificed for them :-)

Amie said...

haha 75 cookies? Bet your girls were thrilled!! You are an amazing Mom!! Sounds like life is busy, but I am sure someday you will miss it! (Maybe not the fighting though)

The Bagley Family said...

I feel your pain! My three fight like CRAZY!!! I mean if we can go 15 mins without them fighting I swear it would be a miracle! My husband keeps reminding me that for the 23 hours and 55 mins minutes of craziness...he lives for the 5 mins snuggle time.
We will get through these times and look back and MISS it. Crazy huh?

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