Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Then and now

Lately my days have been a challenge with these little girls. Kyla has been bugging the babies a lot and they cry. They cry a lot. They are clingy and whiny and fussy. It is hard to get anything done around here. I'm lucky if I get the dishes done. Kyla thinks it's funny to pull the gate down off the stairs and the babies love it so they all run (well crawl) up the stairs and destroy the rooms, so up and down I go carrying both babies at the same time. I have gotten Kyla into trouble for it so she knows it's not funny. But now the babies have figured out how to knock over the gate themselves and climb up it. Next they get into the bathroom...well we all know how that goes! So in and out of there about a hundred times a day. This is only a couple of things that I do numerous times a day ontop of all the other awesome things that went right, like the birds destroying our garbage in the backyard, or the whole bag of frozen peas I spilled all over in the fridge and all over the kitchen, or the migraine that came out of nowhere and made me want to kill myself. Or trying to clean the glass on the tv stand with the kids putting their handprints on it while I wipe. Plus everything I do I have at least 2 girls literally attached to my legs (no joke), while crying....and fighting. As in pushing and pulling eachother off me. Oh goodness.

I feel like i'm not living up the the expectations of what a mom should be, but really i'm exhausted and have accomplished nothing but a big mess. Please tell me i'm not alone! Tomorrow is Dustin's LAST DAY!! We should have a party!!!...oh wait, WE ARE! We are having a halloween party on Saturday night at our house and there is a lot of people coming and I am so excited! So i've been trying to get ready for it, one day at a time.
Monday, I cleaned off the fridge and microwave and wiped walls and doors. Which were discusting and I can't believe I didn't notice them before! Tuesday I cleaned the house spotless, which was pointless because about 2 hours later it looked like I did absolutely nothing. Am I the only one with a house like this? Is this normal? Where is the wonder woman they say I am who should be constantly cleaning up messes? I have said this before, I hate messes. But I also hate cleaning constantly! Today, well I dusted and thats it. My floors need swept at least twice a day, and the vacuum comes out daily. I never knew what it was like to have two kids, so I can't compare to that, I got one....to three. Life with Kyla was easy, it was fun and I said a lot that it was, well.... boring! Well it is definately NOT boring now is it!!
Anyways there is my rant for the day. I'm grouchy so this is very uplifting for you, are you exhasuted yet?? I am.



so happy.....
ps: I promise after the weekend i'll have a million pictures for ya!

13 comments:

Jennie Holt said...

oh my goodness do NOT feel bad!! my house is constantly a disaster...and i only have one kid....for now!!

henline crew said...

you are not alone, being a mom is hard and thats all there is to it. We all have these days, more often than we would like, thats when I ditch the dishes and take a bath cuz when mom ain't happy, no ones happy.

Lynn said...

I totally agree with Henline Crew.
There truly are these bright spots in amongst these HORRIBLE days of being a mom. Hang in there.
YOu totally deserve a party! I am amazed that you are having at your house though.. I would of planned to show up at another friends' house.....but you totally don't surprise me anymore with all that you take on. Wait! You ARE superwoman! ; D I know. not funny. Just trying to get a smile out of you.
Hope tomorrow is another day and a bright spot. Hugs!

Ashley said...

Life of a mom is a constant gong show! I think you handle it as most would. Sometimes you just need a break! Send those girlies to see grandma and take a trip :)

Megan said...

When we moved to Calgary my boys were about the same age as Jayci and Presley. I kept 4 boxes of stuff blocking the stairs so that they couldn't climb up and Hadley couldn't move them. Although it didn't look great, it kept the craziness on one level of the house (and I didn't have to worry about kids falling down the stairs!)

The Byams said...

it is the life of a mother and i have come to terms with the fact that me and motherhood have a love hate relsionship so i just choose to do the things that i love about motherhood and leave the cleaning and what not for when they are grown up. "cleaning a house while children are growing is like shoveling the walk while its still snowing!!" i do a 20 min tidy when the kids are in bed then i sit and veg!!! you are a great mom!!

amieandmichael said...

Looking forward to the hectic life someday, haha.

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Janas Bananas said...

YOu are far from alone, I am not sure if you remember my blog about when the picture fell off the wall that said "my greatest blessings call me mom" and it fell due to fighting and doors slamming?? Well I wrote about the days of my smaller less children..well I hate to tell you this but it does not get better, the getting into things does, but the fighting and the attitudes...not so much. But loving them at the end of the day never changes. It's ok to have bad days and it takes time to figure out the routine.

Don't ever feel like you arn't a good mom, we all feel like we are crappy moms, I think its just being female, we beat ourselves up. It's ok to get mad and punish our kids, thats how they learn right?? it does not make u a bad mom by any means...can't enjoy everything all the time. And not having daddy home makes a difference, I spend many days by myself with 5 small kids, and it sucked and stil does..But really, pretty soon those days will be behind you and you will miss them.....maybe??? I miss babies, but I do not miss the chasing and the whining and crying!!! those days were so tiring. Anyway, enough of my annoying novels...have fun this weekend, and be sure to go out and have some MIndy time and rejouvinate!!!

Ashley said...

Awww, that all sounds so rough! I can't imagine how you deal with it! I think it's hard enough having two little girls to deal with, so I can't imagine having three little ones all at once to handle! It sounds like you're doing a great job. :)

The Anderson Family said...

So I want you to know that you are not a bad mom and that we all have days like this. Ashlee commented on 1 of my posts once and it did make me feel better. It was from Pres. Monson.

"If you are still in the process of raising children, be aware that the tiny fingerprints that show up on almost every newly cleaned surface, the toys scattered about the house, the piles and piles of laundry to be tackled will disappear all too soon and that you wil -- to your surprise -- miss them profoundly."

Hard to imagine missing it right now but it think we just have to live each moment with are kids... good or bad to the fullest.

I'm looking forward coming and partying with you guys tomorrow night!! Its going to be awesome!

the fellers said...

you ARE NOT ALONE! I only have 2, but I can never keep my house clean, I cleaned it spotless on Friday and by saturday it felt like I didnt do a dang thing at all...I hate it, but we just have to keep pressing forward, one day our kids will tell us how much it meant to them how hard we work! Good luck, looks like you had a blast with Dustin off for 4 days!

Chrissy said...

Hi there,

I stumbled upon your blog, and I really wanted to comment on this post. It sounds like you've got your hands full, but don't get down on yourself! You're doing the best that you can, and that's all anyone can ask of you! I'm sure you're a great mom, and you'll work through these issues! Hang in there!

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