We all know how dependant I am on my husband. The last two years have been me and the girls in the house almost everyday. It took a lot to get out myself and do anything with just me and them. Of course when they were babies in car seats, that alone was reason enough to stay home. I guess I just got used to the idea of how hard it would be. I was terrified and to be honest I never even went grocery shopping with just me and the girls. Ever. I feel like a wuss mom for being like that but I am not a very independent person and I hate being alone. I didn't really want to do much either because it was so much work just getting ready to go out the door. Usually when we were out it wasn't so bad but just thinking about how much work it was to get ready turned me off from anything that had to do with leaving the house.
Finally this summer I have broken out of my shell. I'm so proud of myself for how well I have been doing and i'm so impressed with how awesome my girls have been too. I have been to the park, lots of play dates, the lake!, that's a huge one, the spray park, church every other week, heritage days today and even to the grocery store! I guess I don't really have a choice anymore and i'm kind of glad for that. I just wanted to note this down because it may not seem like that big of deal, but it is. It's huge for me. I love these girls and they are so good. I feel so much better knowing i'm giving my girls a fun life, and experiences that they'll remember. Pretty soon Dustin will be joining us too.
There are days when i'm so exhausted and don't want to do anything and my girls just know, they know when i'm at my breaking point. I'm so grateful for tv! I know that sounds terrible but honestly if it wasn't for their favorite tv shows, i'd go insane. Literally insane. I wouldn't get anything done. I also notice how much my girls have learned from their shows. Kyla remembers EVERYTHING from tv, and kids shows are pretty educational now days, so i'm glad for that. Don't worry though I still teach my kids myself and spend quality time with them. Some moms just need that break, like me!
Anyways, I just wanted to document this time of my life because it means so much to me, that I am completely able to do things on my own WITH my girls. They are such sweet little spirits and I have enjoyed every minute making these memories with them.
Here's to being the good mom i've been hoping to be....finally. :)