Monday, August 02, 2010

I'm a big girl now

We all know how dependant I am on my husband. The last two years have been me and the girls in the house almost everyday. It took a lot to get out myself and do anything with just me and them. Of course when they were babies in car seats, that alone was reason enough to stay home. I guess I just got used to the idea of how hard it would be. I was terrified and to be honest I never even went grocery shopping with just me and the girls. Ever. I feel like a wuss mom for being like that but I am not a very independent person and I hate being alone. I didn't really want to do much either because it was so much work just getting ready to go out the door. Usually when we were out it wasn't so bad but just thinking about how much work it was to get ready turned me off from anything that had to do with leaving the house.

Finally this summer I have broken out of my shell. I'm so proud of myself for how well I have been doing and i'm so impressed with how awesome my girls have been too. I have been to the park, lots of play dates, the lake!, that's a huge one, the spray park, church every other week, heritage days today and even to the grocery store! I guess I don't really have a choice anymore and i'm kind of glad for that. I just wanted to note this down because it may not seem like that big of deal, but it is. It's huge for me. I love these girls and they are so good. I feel so much better knowing i'm giving my girls a fun life, and experiences that they'll remember. Pretty soon Dustin will be joining us too.

There are days when i'm so exhausted and don't want to do anything and my girls just know, they know when i'm at my breaking point. I'm so grateful for tv! I know that sounds terrible but honestly if it wasn't for their favorite tv shows, i'd go insane. Literally insane. I wouldn't get anything done. I also notice how much my girls have learned from their shows. Kyla remembers EVERYTHING from tv, and kids shows are pretty educational now days, so i'm glad for that. Don't worry though I still teach my kids myself and spend quality time with them. Some moms just need that break, like me!

Anyways, I just wanted to document this time of my life because it means so much to me, that I am completely able to do things on my own WITH my girls. They are such sweet little spirits and I have enjoyed every minute making these memories with them.

Here's to being the good mom i've been hoping to be....finally. :)



9 comments:

The Pratts said...

This is what we were talking about today, hey? :) I can totally see how it would be scary (and tons of work) to take all 3 kids out with you, so way to go!!

Lynn said...

That is awesome Mindy! Good for you for documenting this time in your life. Someday your girls may need to read this for some reason or another when they find that something feels too hard to do in their life as a mother. They can see that you were able to take steps to overcome your fears.

I totally relate to this post about fear.....I was the same way when my kids were little..... about going out and DRIVING. I couldn't and wouldn't do it until I was "forced to". I had no one else to drive me and my kids but myself. I HAD to get that license and so I did. I was 8 months pregnant with my second. I was so huge (my belly) I could hardly sit behind the wheel and reach the peddle, but I did it and the testing instructor had a good laugh. HA!

Anyway. Good for you.

Mindi said...

We all knew you could do it...we ALL can do it, it's just a matter of actually getting up the courage to do it! I'm like that sometimes. I HATE grocery shopping without Josh, but I have a 3 year old in the back of the cart, a baby in a carseat in the front, and NOWHERE for groceries. But I'm glad you are getting out!

Jordana said...

Nice work Mindy! Getting out the door is such a pain, but it's always worth it to get out of the house. Especially since we only have a few months of nice weather, we have to get out while we can!

Linz said...

You seriously are SUPERMOM. You were made for it! LOVE YOU!!!

Brandon and Kristy said...

Im so proud of u! You are doing great and your such a great mom. I cant imagine having the mind set to pack up all the girls and get out.. so much work. But they know that and they love you. Yay for summer too! its nice they can play at the park and in the water and you can just have fun. Being a mom is so much work! But your doing great! love you!

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Carrie said...

You are seriously super Mom. I would probably hole up for another 3 years before I went out with 3 little kids, I don't know how you do it. It's hard enough with one!

Tabitha, Ryan & Baby Haylen said...

This post totally made me tear up!! Good on you Mindy!! Being a mommy is by far the hardest yet most rewarding thing a girl could ever do with her life, and I can totally relate to what your going through. Although I only have one little boy, not nearly the challenge of twins and a 4 year old, but its just nice to know that other people have the same thoughts, fears and hard times that you do. I know if you can do it with 3 I can do it with one, so thanks for the inspiring post!! totally made my day!!

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