Lately especially. I have been through a couple things with people and it has made me take a look at my life and what I really want and don't want.
I am a very real person and I am an open person. I am not afraid to be me. I have had a couple people lately make me feel bad about who I am, which of course makes me question it. But I realized, I like who I am! I'm happy and outgoing and love life. I have bad days, I cry, I yell when i'm angry and I make a million mistakes, and by no ways am I perfect. I am human. I am also comfortable in my own skin. I don't worry about impressing people or doing what others do. I like to be on my own and kind of do what I want. Thankfully Dustin and I are so alike in this area. We are so lucky to have such a smooth marriage when it comes to life. We agree on most things and usually have the same opinions about things. He doesn't judge who I am, and I "try" not to judge him. ;) Sometimes his happiness drives me crazy, ha. Seriously who is that positive ALL THE TIME?! But I love him. He is my number one fan and i'm his. I look up to him and his positive attitude and it has rubbed off on me. Which i'm grateful for.
There are a few things I like to live by and lately have realized how much I will try to live this way.
One is to be positive. I feel like i'm a pretty positive person but this is in a different sense. I don't let the negative AFFECT me anymore. I don't have time to waste on negative energy in my life. I don't need it. I focus on the good things. I'm blessed with my beautiful family, a great, GREAT husband and 4 beautiful little girls. That is what is important to me. And family. I realized how important family is. Sisters, inlaws, parents etc. They are the most important people in life and I know they will never judge me for who I am and I can always rely on them. I do have to write a little bit about my sister in law, Jill. She has been SO supportive of me and I really appreciate her and everything she does for me. I know she will never judge and is always there when I need her. I'm really blessed to have her in my life. Love ya Jill. :)
Second is to be NICE. Most of you know how I feel about being nice. It's SO important. I got picked on and bullied growing up and I hate how I didn't stand up for myself more, but it made me realize how important it is to be nice to people. I definitely had good friends but I had a lot of hard times with rude people. Be careful what you say to others because words hurt, and they stay with you for a long time. I was told recently that I am a selfish person. That hurt a lot. I try so hard to be a nice person and put others first and I care a lot about others feelings. I'm always willing to help and I have a hard time saying no. So to hear that was really hurtful. It's funny how something that seems so simple can be so hard for so many people.
And the third is to Have Fun! You only live once so do what you want and enjoy every day to the fullest. I went through a couple years where all I wanted was to get through another day. But now I want to ENJOY every day. I try not to let my kids hold me back from doing anything. I've been blessed with amazing kids and I want them to have a fun life, a HAPPY life. It's the simple things that count too. I'm also going to have fun for myself! Take breaks and do things on my own that I like to do. Same for Dustin. I'm going to make him stop working and have fun, play basketball, pull out his old skateboard, go fishing, hunting, quadding...etc. The list could go on for him. But we need to enjoy life before it passes us by.
Anyways these are just a few thoughts i've had going through my head for a while and I needed to get it out.
I know so many amazing people in my life, whether they live far or near, I'm grateful for every one.
I love to blog, I love to share about our family and the good or bad times we have. I'm glad I have somewhere to go to where I can write what I want and not care.
Anyways, that's my little rant for today. I'm grateful for my life and will never take it for granted.
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