Tuesday, July 12, 2011

the walls are down

I figured since this is my "journal" it's okay to talk about some more serious things. So just bear with me.

Life is not easy.
I think I try my hardest to be happy and do everything I can but sometimes there are things I can't control. Sometimes it is out of my hands and I just have to work through it. Trials make us stronger but it sure is hard while going through them. I know some of you know what i'm talking about and i'm so grateful for the love of my husband and family and my children.
I guess I think because i'm an adult that some things will be easier to go through but I now know that's not true. I try to be strong and get through every day like nothing is happening but it's still there.

I love my husband. I love my children. I am so grateful for everything I have. I'm grateful for amazing friends who are there for me.
I don't know what else to say but the days have been a little hard lately. I think i'm a strong person but when I break down in tears over the smallest things, I know things are affecting me more than I thought. I know it's okay to cry. It's tough to even write this and admit that it's hard without tears coming because I know i'm a strong person but sometimes even strong people have a hard time and that's ok.

This probably didn't even make any sense.
Things will be okay.

I saw this quote today that couldn't be more perfect for me right now,

"People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long."


Amie said...

Aw hugs Min!! If you ever need to chat, I'm here. I hope things start to get a little more bearable for you and your family. It's so tough when things like this are out of your hands!! You are in our prayers!

Lynn said...

Mindy, I do not even know what specifics you are speaking about.....but do know this....I DO understand completely what you are saying. I needed to hear this quote you shared myself. Trials are SO hard to bear somedays.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful testimony of what trials can do for us, and for sharing your gratitude for your husband and baby girls. Hang in there. I will add you to my prayers. Remember...some trials may never go away..but the burdens can be made lighter.

The Harker Family said...

Oh Mindy, hang in there! Sometimes it seems like no one in the world but us are experiencing trials, and that makes it all the harder. But everyone in their own way has or will experience trials which will make them better people. That is why we are on this earth! Trials do make us stronger. As difficult as they are to go through and to endure, they do change our inner core and who we are as people- for the good. We become better people because of our trials. Always remember that the Lord gives us trials so that we can grow and become more like Christ, and that is truly amazing. So in the hard times, try to remember that! The Lord and those around you love you very much and are here to bare you up in your difficult times. Keep on having faith! Love ya!

Kristin said...

I can only imagine how chaotic life can feel at times - I only have half the number of girls that you do. Please remember to be gentle on yourself. Your online community knows how much you love your family and that is likely what makes this need to be strong more powerful. We all want to do our best and keep it all together - some days we are bullet proof, some days we are not. This too shall pass Mindy - you know the better days are just around the corner again! Good of you to write it out and to be supported by many of us all that have been there too! Tears are such a gift. A gift to heal, a gift to help reset life.

Carrie said...

Thanks for sharing - I've been having a tough few days too, and actually just broke down crying a little while ago too. It's comforting to know I'm not the only one ;)

MEG said...

Mindy....I love ya! It's okay to cry and give me a call sometimes I have 1000 things to say to ya

Randy and Capri Bird said...

People will say that they understand what you are going through, but do they really? I DO know what is going on and I HAVE been there. Trust me it is not easy. This is something that you NEVER wish anyone to go through. I can tell you one thing that I have found so far, it does get easier as time goes on. There is a process you have to go through. I dont even know if I am making sense, but I do know how you feel. Hang in there. Tears are good. And remember to hug your girls and Dustin. Things will get better.

Meagan M said...

Life is rough...and more people are dealing with very difficult trials than you'd think. So please know you are not alone.

Although I'm not sure exactly what you're going through, I can tell you that I understand what it feels like to be tested....and challenged and given trials that I wasn't expecting. It's hard, but you either get through them or you learn to deal with them. I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now...and I hope that you can find some peace in the situation (whatever it may be).

You are blessed though in so many ways and it seems like you understand that and that is what will get you through this.

kelsey said...

Isn't it interesting how when we are going through a major trial, we find out how many people have been in similar circumstances? It's comforting to know that we are all human, and all subject to hard times and weakness. I have no clue what you are going through, but it was inspiring reading all the comments and to see all of the support that you have.

I'm sure you don't need it, but I'm here too if you need anything. Okay, not literally here. . . but you know what I mean!

Kaylee said...

Hope you and your family are doing okay. You'll be up on blog in couple days and then it'll be sent early next week. You guys were great, such cute girls and so well behaved....I"m sure they aren't always so good and if they are I want some tips...;)