Then and now

Lately my days have been a challenge with these little girls. Kyla has been bugging the babies a lot and they cry. They cry a lot. They are clingy and whiny and fussy. It is hard to get anything done around here. I'm lucky if I get the dishes done. Kyla thinks it's funny to pull the gate down off the stairs and the babies love it so they all run (well crawl) up the stairs and destroy the rooms, so up and down I go carrying both babies at the same time. I have gotten Kyla into trouble for it so she knows it's not funny. But now the babies have figured out how to knock over the gate themselves and climb up it. Next they get into the bathroom...well we all know how that goes! So in and out of there about a hundred times a day. This is only a couple of things that I do numerous times a day ontop of all the other awesome things that went right, like the birds destroying our garbage in the backyard, or the whole bag of frozen peas I spilled all over in the fridge and all over the kitchen, or the migraine that came out of nowhere and made me want to kill myself. Or trying to clean the glass on the tv stand with the kids putting their handprints on it while I wipe. Plus everything I do I have at least 2 girls literally attached to my legs (no joke), while crying....and fighting. As in pushing and pulling eachother off me. Oh goodness.

I feel like i'm not living up the the expectations of what a mom should be, but really i'm exhausted and have accomplished nothing but a big mess. Please tell me i'm not alone! Tomorrow is Dustin's LAST DAY!! We should have a party!!!...oh wait, WE ARE! We are having a halloween party on Saturday night at our house and there is a lot of people coming and I am so excited! So i've been trying to get ready for it, one day at a time.
Monday, I cleaned off the fridge and microwave and wiped walls and doors. Which were discusting and I can't believe I didn't notice them before! Tuesday I cleaned the house spotless, which was pointless because about 2 hours later it looked like I did absolutely nothing. Am I the only one with a house like this? Is this normal? Where is the wonder woman they say I am who should be constantly cleaning up messes? I have said this before, I hate messes. But I also hate cleaning constantly! Today, well I dusted and thats it. My floors need swept at least twice a day, and the vacuum comes out daily. I never knew what it was like to have two kids, so I can't compare to that, I got one....to three. Life with Kyla was easy, it was fun and I said a lot that it was, well.... boring! Well it is definately NOT boring now is it!!
Anyways there is my rant for the day. I'm grouchy so this is very uplifting for you, are you exhasuted yet?? I am.



so happy.....
ps: I promise after the weekend i'll have a million pictures for ya!